Friday, March 26, 2010 @ 7:02 PM
moved
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@ 11:53 AM
i cried again yesterday, to stressed and tired after a long day of school
at least i felt better
i love my drearest loads
thank you for all the emails
and always being there for me
always there to talk me
my motivation and my strength!
Sunday, March 21, 2010 @ 6:25 PM
every entry seems to be an emo entry
i was very emo yesterday afternoon
i cried a lot from missing my mummy and daddy
thanks to zh for talking to me
for the sweetest email
and not forgetting jieying for your sweetest epostcard u made for me
talked to daddy for more than 1 hour plus
i love my family and friends to the max!
i will be strong
Saturday, March 20, 2010 @ 1:07 PM
i know its takes time.
i wish this one year could finish quickly then i can chamge campus to st lucia
where there are more people i know
where there are more people
than maybe i wont feel lke tt anymore?
den i also could go back sg
我为啥这么的懦弱？
我一点也不像这样。
我只想快快把书读完
早点回到父母与朋友的怀抱
可能我还不够热情
太自我封闭了
可是我就是不能把自己变成那种人
我不喜欢焦点。。
记的二哥告诉我要开放一点
不要太安静，可是我就是办不到
我宁愿做个聆听者
有时候甚至感觉我插不进这个conversation
他们讲他们的我却在想着不同的东西
这感觉好陌生，不像和我的dearest说话时的感觉
一切还是慢慢来吧
又时好想好想早个人说说心事也没人
dearest们都在考试
不想打扰
昨天和妈妈聊了很久
谢谢妈妈为我做的一切
女儿真的好想好想好想你
好像躺在你的怀抱
眼泪不知不觉的流了下来
妈妈女儿不在你身边
你也要好好照顾自己
不要太思念女儿而忘了吃饭
这样才能在能安心的读书了
妈妈一定要吃好睡和好
不要在瘦了
我真的好想回去
我不要自己一个人呆在这边
离开的一个月
让我感觉度日如年
感觉已离开你好久好久
我好像抹抹你的手
和你一起吃饭
我好希望我有一根火柴
点亮了就能看到
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 @ 2:16 PM
i feel that i think too much
i emo too much
i need to find work to distract myself
even though i keep telling myself.
come on! open up to ppl
i still cant do it
i cant imagine being a very enthu and open person
i wwill be quite when i am not close to u
its only when i am with really close friends than i will do be crazy
and do crazy stuff
this is just me
i need to work to stop having random thoughts
i think too much
i miss my friends and family too much
need to work
no matter how hard i try, there always seem to something pulling me back.
i cant do it
simply cant
